A Prayer for the Children

We've unfortunately seen many senseless acts of violence in our lifetime; however this most recent one is tearing at the souls of everyone even more because of so many innocent children involved.  I can't imagine losing a child... and as I see the pictures of both the children and their grieving families I can't stop the tears or the longing to ease their pain.  All I can do from here ho is Pray for the children, their families and the entire community.  I can't fathom such heartache...

A Prayer for the Children

On Friday, December 14, 2012, 20 children were killed in a shooting rampage at an elementary
school in Newtown, Connecticut. Seven adults, including the gunman, also died at the scene. As
the families and friends of the deceased mourn the loss of their loved ones, we pray for the
children, and for all those whose lives have been affected by this tragedy.
Our hearts are broken.
Today, in the midst of holiday cheer,
we are painfully reminded of the cruelty and fragility of our lives together.
How do we live with such unimaginable grief?
How do we comfort such intolerable pain?
How do we care for each other in a world where violence seems so readily accessible?
Great comforter and protector,
We have no answers.
No words that can heal the broken heartedness we feel.
Yet you have promised to heal the broken hearted and to bind up their wounds.
We cling ardently to this assurance.
This is the world that Christ is born into;
A world bursting with broken-hearted people.
This is the world that you call us to sing, ‘Rejoice’ in.
The pain is too fresh, the wounds are too raw,
Yet still, we light the pink candle in anticipation of your fulfilled promises.
Until then,
we will continue to pray
For the parents,
For the families,
For the victims,
For the teachers,
For the first responders,
For the survivors, and
For all who have been crushed by this shooting.
We will hold them in our hearts.
We will strive to compassionately care for each other.
And, we will honor and lift-up our children,
For in them the light of Christ beams.
Amen.

Alydia Smith
The United Church of Canada

Gossip and Rumors..

http://www.victorious.org/gossip.htm

We rarely discover how--or even why--a rumor gets started. Sometimes rumors are spread intentionally, sometimes by mistake.  Maybe a someone sees a new car at a neighbors house and assumes they have a new friend.  Or someone reads a blog and assumes they know what's going on in someones life.  Bits of conversation, reads and sightings, all taken out of context. Is it a rumor or more juicy gossip to be spread? Usually it's because someone noisy has assumed things.  Their information isn't reliable enough to even repeat, let alone spread.  Gossips spread rumors anyway, only to hurt people in the end.  How sad!

Sometimes rumors are completely ridiculous, like the ones going around about me right now.  And sometimes they are more believable than the truth to people who have no idea what's it's like to be happy with oneself and ones own life.  They may be innocent, they may be hurtful, but they usually have expected and unexpected consequences.

Many of you have noticed that I've become distant. Have I ever mention that I don't like it here... no I don't really.  I try to stay positive and made the best of it until my son is done with school.  However, it's not my home state and I feel that I will never fit in.  Which has been perfectly fine with me since about the first month, so I've been counting the days until I can move again ever since.  The people here don't really know or understand me.  I tried to make 'real' friends here and I have regretted it every time.   Very bad experiences with people assuming things and even intentionally trying to cause trouble in my life.  Spreading lies, because they assumed things or worst, because they just wanted to cause trouble.  People who didn't even know me!! 

Although I started writing last year, I am still a very private person, because of what I've gone through in the last 6 years.  Yes, I write about finding true love and special friends in my life.  But no one but my sons and I, have any idea who the people I write about truly are.  I thought that was best.  Now I realize that gossip and evil people will assume, even make things up, if you don't tell them what's going on (or not going on) in your life.  

Seriously, these people need lives of their own.  Or at least Happy ones, because I don't think any of them can possibly be happy if they spread gossip and lies.  I've said it before... but I really Hate gossip!  This is why I keep to myself.  This is also ONE of the reasons I'm moving to another state as soon as my youngest son graduates in July and I can sell my house.  I've been planning this for 2 years.  Although I didn't think it's anyone else's business who are what I write about on my blog or what my plans are.  Which by the way, it's just a blog people!  It's my creative writing, my therapy, my voice and my business!  All of which I have a right to in this country and in this way too short a life. 

I just told you all something personal, because I am finally not afraid of anyone ruining my future.   My true friends, know that I am a good person who would Never ever hurt anyone intentionally.  That I started my blog and writing because I truly wanted to help people.  I know I have helped many, by all the private and personal emails I've received over the last year.   However maybe it's time to think of myself and put my writing on hold until I get out of this God forsaken state.  I don't know for sure at this moment in time; however I do know that it has been an incredibly painful and hurtful past week for me, that I did not deserve.  Phone calls have been made and my reputation has been trashed from nothing but lies and assumptins; even though I've never 'crossed' a line or done anything even inappropriate... let alone wrong.  I'm a good mother, good friend and mostly.. I'm a good person!!

What’s Wrong With Gossip?  By Dr. Dale A. Robbins
All scripture is quoted from the New International Version.