Sometimes rumors are completely ridiculous, like the ones going around about me right now. And sometimes they are more believable than the truth to people who have no idea what's it's like to be happy with oneself and ones own life. They may be innocent, they may be hurtful, but they usually have expected and unexpected consequences.
Many of you have noticed that I've become distant. Have I ever mention that I don't like it here... no I don't really. I try to stay positive and made the best of it until my son is done with school. However, it's not my home state and I feel that I will never fit in. Which has been perfectly fine with me since about the first month, so I've been counting the days until I can move again ever since. The people here don't really know or understand me. I tried to make 'real' friends here and I have regretted it every time. Very bad experiences with people assuming things and even intentionally trying to cause trouble in my life. Spreading lies, because they assumed things or worst, because they just wanted to cause trouble. People who didn't even know me!!
Although I started writing last year, I am still a very private person, because of what I've gone through in the last 6 years. Yes, I write about finding true love and special friends in my life. But no one but my sons and I, have any idea who the people I write about truly are. I thought that was best. Now I realize that gossip and evil people will assume, even make things up, if you don't tell them what's going on (or not going on) in your life.
Seriously, these people need lives of their own. Or at least Happy ones, because I don't think any of them can possibly be happy if they spread gossip and lies. I've said it before... but I really Hate gossip! This is why I keep to myself. This is also ONE of the reasons I'm moving to another state as soon as my youngest son graduates in July and I can sell my house. I've been planning this for 2 years. Although I didn't think it's anyone else's business who are what I write about on my blog or what my plans are. Which by the way, it's just a blog people! It's my creative writing, my therapy, my voice and my business! All of which I have a right to in this country and in this way too short a life.
I just told you all something personal, because I am finally not afraid of anyone ruining my future. My true friends, know that I am a good person who would Never ever hurt anyone intentionally. That I started my blog and writing because I truly wanted to help people. I know I have helped many, by all the private and personal emails I've received over the last year. However maybe it's time to think of myself and put my writing on hold until I get out of this God forsaken state. I don't know for sure at this moment in time; however I do know that it has been an incredibly painful and hurtful past week for me, that I did not deserve. Phone calls have been made and my reputation has been trashed from nothing but lies and assumptins; even though I've never 'crossed' a line or done anything even inappropriate... let alone wrong. I'm a good mother, good friend and mostly.. I'm a good person!!
What’s Wrong With Gossip? By Dr. Dale A. Robbins
All scripture is quoted from the New International Version.